i feel so guilty..because my family is being really great

right now and i feel bad because im hurting myself..i

dont know if you guys know what i mean but its just that

i feel really bad for doing this..doesnt mean i`ll stop lol

but still..oh well..i got so much candy and chocolate

from my friends today gahhh..so what i decided to do

was to put the chocolates and candy in my locker so

that way i wouldnt come home and be tempted to eat

them..i just took some candy hearts because i guess

i really wanted them and anyways when i got home

i went on the tredmill and burned even more than the

candy hearts had..so its all good lol. hopefullyyyyyyy

i found some small peas and they are only 60 cals a 1/2

cup and they have 3 grams of dietary fiber and not

that many carbs so im gonna eat 1/2 cup like next week

and then go on the tredmill afterwards. thats not bad

right? for the rest of this week im gonna be fasting and

maybe chewing gum idk..ughh school sucks i got a

got a freakin 30 on a science quiz!!! damn it howd i

do that? on all my other tests i got like 90s and 100s

and now all of a sudden a 30!? well basically all the

people in my class got 30s and 40s and 50s and

stuff but then some people got 90s and 100s. uyyyy

this sucks like hell..im so good in academics just i

bombed this stupid quiz..it wont hurt my grade that

bad will it? i hope not. i wish i could take it again

i didnt get on honor roll this marking period =( man

ohh man i really do suck. i got student of the marking

period for social studies but no honor roll because

of stupid french. i got a 72 average just because i

failed one test. but all the others were good! i wish i

had gotten honor roll.i tryed so hard..well this time im

gonna try even harder..hopefully my science grade

can go back up to a 90..whatd u think? anyway i

really wanted to be student of the marking period

for language arts..im so good in that class.maybe

she`ll give it to me 3rd or 4th marking period? ill

pray for it...right now i feel like a big dumb piece

of worthless shit..anyway last night i had the

freakiest dream..it was like there was some party

at my house and someone i hate was here so

i was soo mad and then i took a bite of food and

i was like wth!!!! so i spit it out and then after a

while i took another bite of food and i was like

fuck whyd i just do that? so i spit it out again..

then i took another bite of food by accident and

i spit it out..i got so nervous and stuff. when i woke

up i was like omg thank god this was just a dream

-i wouldve died if it were real.well i hope you guys

are having great days and happy valentine`s day!!!

ex ohh

hola ; )

sup chicken butt!?

i have soo much stuff to do..like a science project and studying but i really dont feel like it.so im probably gonna wait till the last minute like usual =/ this week hasnt been the best ever. actually its been pretty bad. argahhblrgff pray that next week is good!

its snowing its snowing its snowing yayayy..i hate that someone told me that it was gonna snow before it did snow because that just ruined the whole suprise..

shopping tomorrow yayyyyy..ill feel like a total fatass trying stuff on. god damn it whyyyy cant my mom just buy fruits and vegetables!? it would stop the damn cravings. i hate food-grossssss.

& im gone as the day is fading